I don't want to die but how can it be

worse than what I know now while I'm alive

if I'm unhappy and at least when you're

dead you're not, not unhappy that is, nor

happy neither--my Sunday School teacher

laughs and says that for ten years old I take

life much too seriously but I say

Well, this is my immortal soul that's on

the line so she stops smiling and tries not

to laugh anymore so I continue with

Do you mean that I might be in Hell come

the Afterlife and that's how I'll be sad

and she says so her laughter becomes words

instead Yes, that's right so I say Then I

might as well live. In the Bible she’d weep.

I don't want to go to Hell when I die,

I get a bit of it now where I am

here on Earth and as for Heaven, well, if

I have to die to get there, and I do,

do have to die I mean, I don't want to

but doubt I can stop it and what God is

is what you can't control if God's any

-thing. At Sunday School today I confessed

to our teacher that the last thing I want

to do is die--it didn't come out right

--and she started to laugh and couldn't stop

until I started to cry and that shut

her up and when I stopped she started in

crying, in the Bible it's called weeping,

when tears are serious like God is dead.